Spike — The Fire and the Stillness
I live in the eye of the storm. My name is Freddie Wright Nix Jr. but the ones who know me call me Spike. I'm a technologist, a warfighter turned caregiver, and a man stripping away illusion in real time.
“Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness.” — Eckhart Tolle
What I Carry
- A father with Alzheimer’s who remembers how to smile, even if not why.
- A mother bound by fear and objects, trying to breathe through the clutter.
- A marriage burned down to its spiritual bones.
- A career resurrected, built on Linux, AI, and raw nerve.
- A stillness growing inside me—stronger than grief, louder than ego.
I Don’t Perform Anymore
No more pretending. No more needing to be right. I walk away from drama, from rage, from anyone who confuses love with control. Presence isn’t passive. It’s the only real strength I’ve got left.
The Practice
- I start the day with silence before the chaos speaks.
- I return to the breath when caregiving threatens to shatter me.
- I remind myself: I am not my thoughts. I am not my role. I am the awareness behind it all.
- I serve, but I do not disappear.
Stacked Projects
- Ubuntu + VXLAN EVPN lab work on Cisco UCS with NVIDIA L40S
- Raspberry Pi server (this page) with dynamic DNS via
duckdns
- Presales automation at BTA—clean, scalable, honest infrastructure
- Emotional journaling & voice archive with GPT + Compass
The Truth
“The primary cause of unhappiness is never the situation but your thoughts about it.” — Tolle
This isn’t a portfolio. It’s a transmission. If you feel it, you already know what I mean. We’re not here to win. We’re here to wake up.