Spike — The Fire and the Stillness

I live in the eye of the storm. My name is Freddie Wright Nix Jr. but the ones who know me call me Spike. I'm a technologist, a warfighter turned caregiver, and a man stripping away illusion in real time.

“Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness.” — Eckhart Tolle

What I Carry

• A father with Alzheimer’s who remembers how to smile, even if not why.
• A mother bound by fear and objects, trying to breathe through the clutter.
• A marriage burned down to its spiritual bones.
• A career resurrected, built on Linux, AI, and raw nerve.
• A stillness growing inside me—stronger than grief, louder than ego.

I Don’t Perform Anymore

No more pretending. No more needing to be right. I walk away from drama, from rage, from anyone who confuses love with control. Presence isn’t passive. It’s the only real strength I’ve got left.

The Practice

• I start the day with silence before the chaos speaks.
• I return to the breath when caregiving threatens to shatter me.
• I remind myself: I am not my thoughts. I am not my role. I am the awareness behind it all.
• I serve, but I do not disappear.

Stacked Projects

• Ubuntu + VXLAN EVPN lab work on Cisco UCS with NVIDIA L40S
• Raspberry Pi server (this page) with dynamic DNS via duckdns
• Presales automation at BTA—clean, scalable, honest infrastructure
• Emotional journaling & voice archive with GPT + Compass

The Truth

“The primary cause of unhappiness is never the situation but your thoughts about it.” — Tolle

This isn’t a portfolio. It’s a transmission. If you feel it, you already know what I mean. We’re not here to win. We’re here to wake up.