Stillness Inside the Storm

My name is Freddie Wright Nix Jr., but the ones who know me call me Spike.

There is a particular kind of silence that comes with watching someone you love disappear one memory at a time. This space holds that silence, and everything that lives within it.

What This Is

A personal archive. A field manual. A witness to the daily practice of showing up when showing up is all you have left. No heroes here. No villains either. Just the weight of love measured in laundry loads and medication schedules.

Daily Practice

AI & Infrastructure

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Building systems that think so I don't have to. Automating the automatable. Creating digital infrastructure that holds when everything else falls apart. The machines remember what we forget.

Caregiving

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Two parents. Two different declines. One requires constant vigilance against the fog of Alzheimer's. The other battles hoarding and the fortress of denial it builds. Both need more than one person can give.

System Rebuild

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Every crisis is a system failure waiting to be fixed. Healthcare navigation. Legal frameworks. Financial structures. Building the infrastructure that should exist but doesn't. One line of code, one phone call, one form at a time.

Memory Book

The Day She Forgot My Name

But remembered the dog we had in 1987

404 Errors in Human Form

When the neural pathways return "file not found"

The Hoard

What 30 years of "might need this" looks like

Night Shift

3 AM is when the real conversations happen

The Mediator

Standing between two parents who forgot how to talk

System Crash

When Medicare meets reality

Systems Not Stories

Field manuals for the war nobody trains you for.

Journal Archive

December 3, 2024

The Infrastructure of Love

Built another automation today. This one handles medication reminders...

AI + Tech Infrastructure
November 28, 2024

Thanksgiving in Separate Rooms

Two parents. Two meals. Zero shared memories...

Family Conflict Alzheimer's
November 15, 2024

What the Machines Know

The AI remembers her birthday. She doesn't...

Late Night Thoughts AI + Tech

The Rules I Live By

Show up. Even when showing up is all you can do.

The system is broken. Build your own.

Love is measured in loads of laundry, not words.

Document everything. Memory is the first casualty.

You can't save everyone. Save who you can.

Rage at the machine, then fix it.

Silent presence beats empty words.

Contact

Not all messages will be answered, but all are read. Sometimes witnessing is enough.